Title: 'Just Gotta' contest prizes are all done
Date: January 31st 2009
And today we have yet another new SoL. I also finished the last two prizes I promised to draw
for the Just Gotta contest. Go me! And finally I also received another Sandy sprite from
mimey. I thought you guys might like to know that mimey has decided to work on his comic
again. It has started over and is now called
Frontier Challenge. And Sandy from SoL may receive a cameo role in it. Sounds exciting, huh?
Get over there and show mimey your support! :)
Title: And here's yet another Saturday
Date: January 24th 2009
The new SoL is up. I also have one of the last two contest entries I intend to make up in
the galleries and I finished one of the contest prizes. And last but not least, I received
a cute Blue Uncia sprite from Nekomata. :)
Have a nice weekend and don't forget to request your prizes if you haven't already!
Title: Let's talk about the future for a bit
Date: January 17th 2009
New Saturday means a new update. I also have one new gallery entry and one new addition to the
fanart gallery. Things have been pretty slow this week, but I'll get to that later.
Alrighty, so now here's what I wanted to talk to you guys about.
As you guys probably know, things have gotten pretty hectic for me lately. I'm no longer a
regular student. After completing my masters, I started working as a PhD student. This is a
great honor and a wonderful opportunity, but it is also a lot of hard work. And lately I've
found myself less motivated to give it my all. In part, this is because I am very tired. Another
reason probably has something to do with me not knowing how far along I really am. I have no way
of knowing whether I am on, ahead or behind on schedule.
So then I started doing some thinking. What exactly is it that's making me so tired? Well,
the answer's pretty obvious. After spending an entire day hard at work and making
frustratingly little progress, I usually spend all my remaining free time drawing. Now don't get
me wrong, I love to draw. I find it very relaxing. But there can also be too much of a good
thing, you know? Whenever I draw, I find myself working towards some sort of deadline. My drive
to draw mostly comes from a sense of duty, as well as from the actual pleasure. I think this
is what allows me to work faster than most artists, but it's also starting to really tire me out.
So basically, my problem is not the fact that I draw a lot, it's that I am my own slave driver.
And quite frankly, it's got to stop. I've found that a lot of other stuff I like to do has
started to suffer somewhat. I've been wanting to clean out my room since forever now. I have
about a dozen different unplayed games laying around. I have unread books gathering dust. I've
been wanting to pick up story-writing for a very long time now. My website needs a serious
revamp. The list goes on and on. The way I see it, the key to getting myself in a somewhat more
happy and relaxed state, is to allow myself to engage in more diverse activities, not just art.
I hope that makes sense.
So why am I telling you all of this? It's not because any of this is your fault. Like I said,
I'm to blame for most of this. I've been on this art-frenzy for well over a year now. I am
telling you this because I kind of need you guys to know that I intend to slow everything down
a bit. Try to see the following as my belated new year resolutions.
Stuff of Legend
I intend to keep the comic running as it always has. Comic production takes up roughly three
evenings per week, leaving more than enough time to devote myself to other activities during
the rest of the week. Back in 2006 this is how I always spent my time, and as far as I recall,
I was perfectly happy.
You should know however, that I really don't like SoL's snail's pace. I never have, and I know
that deep down you guys don't like it either. I have been considering to simplify SoL's production
process ever since 2006. I think I'm finally ready to try that out. I'm not happy about giving
up SoL's current style, but at this rate I'll still be working on this comic by the end of this
decade. Giving up a little bit of quality to gain some quantity may be just what this comic
needs. And in the end, I think everybody likes having more updates, right? I'll let you guys
know more as soon as I have additional information.
Closed. I think I asked a couple of people to do art trades with me before the holidays. But
they haven't gotten back to me yet. If the two of you still want to do art trades, let me know.
However, I'm not going to do any more trades with anyone else for a while. This includes the
ShinXChange. I love that event, but I just can't do it right now.
Closed. Even if I did want to do one, it would only be with my friends.
I'll probably keep making people gifts if I feel like it and/or feel inspired to do so. I
like making people happy. :) Expect them to be sporadic, though.
Some of these tutorials have been on my to-do-list since forever. Most of them are requests.
Don't worry, I still intend to do them. Just don't expect to see them done any time soon.
Also, please stop requesting any more. I think we've already established that I can't really
say 'no'. XD
Ah yes, contests. My greatest of addictions. I don't know why, but I nearly always feel compelled
to join them, even if I don't particularly fancy the prizes. But lately I've become a little
disappointed with the contests. It's not because I occasionally lose some of them. Heck, that's
part of the game (and the thrill), right? My main problem with the contests is the fact that
sometimes I manage to lose for reasons I don't really understand. Whining about it like a big
baby isn't really my style, but it does feel like a big waste of my time and energy when I make
a flipping huge entry and then manage to lose against something which looks like it might
have been slapped together in an hour or so.
But that's not even my biggest concern. I've also become a little disappointed with some of the
contests I did win. I won't name any people, but let's just say that a lot of folks still
owe me art. I don't mind waiting for a while, but in some cases I've been waiting for well
over 10 months.
I currently have two more contests on my to-do-list. One of them is about half-finished.
I join these contests because I want to, because their themes appeal to me. That's it. After these
two, I don't intend to do any more contests for a while. You would do me a huge favour by not
asking me to join your contest, because you'd just be tempting me again. XD
Ah yes. I still owe some people their art too. I don't like making people wait, so I will do these
as soon as I can. There should be four prizes. I still owe Psychic her third prize from my contest.
Please feel free to let me know what you want me to draw, ok hun? And since I also offered to
donate art to the first three winners of the Just Gotta contest, they may also request their
prizes from me.
All four of you, please don't hesitate to send me your requests, ok? I know I just said
I wanted to cut back on drawing, but this is different. I owe you art, so I will
make sure you get your pictures as soon as possible.
And finally my pet projects
You may already have noticed that I've put a good number of them on hold already. Well, I
will continue to suspend working on them for now. Frankly, I've kind of lost the desire to
work on most of them already. So I'll only do these whenever I actually feel like
So there you have it. My new year's resolutions. I hope this will help clear up my schedule,
and restore my enthusiasm for my PhD research. I need you guys to be my witnesses on this one.
While SoL will keep being updated, the stream of secondary art will probably reduce to a trickle.
If you feel that I might be overdoing it again art-wise, feel free to remind me. ^__^
Title: In Loving Memory
Date: January 5th 2009
Last night Tiger's situation started to deteriorate. Over the weekend there had already been
signs of his situation getting worse. The most notable change was the fact that he was starting
to lose his appetite again. His pain meds also did not seem to work very well anymore, even
as I increased the dose.
This night Tiger tossed and turned in his sleep, because he couldn't find a comfortable position
for his swollen leg. It was heartbreaking to watch him keep readjusting himself, while moaning in
obvious pain. So I gave him another double dose of his pain meds and this seemed to help him
settle down for a few hours. However, at about half past six in the morning, when Tiger tried
to eat a bit, he immediately started vomiting. He continued to vomit small portions of
whatever was left in his obviously empty stomach for roughly one and a half hours.
In the end, he just sat down and meowed, feeling very sorry for himself. So I took him back in
bed with me and kept him warm, which finally made the vomiting stop. These events kind of
proved to me, what I had already been suspecting for the past few days: that Tiger was suffering
and didn't have much longer left to live.
I've already said it a lot over the last two weeks; it's very difficult to decide when to have
your best friend put to sleep, especially if he's been by your side for most of your life. But
as much as I knew that I would miss him, I also didn't want to watch him suffer any more. It
wasn't fair to him and he deserved better than that.
This is why we took him to the vet this morning and Tiger was put to sleep. At first he
complained about being taken there, because no pet really likes going to the vet, but he didn't
put up much of a fight. I suppose he was just too weak. Besides, I had just given him a nice warm
place on my bed to sleep, and I doubt he wanted to leave. But when we got there, he was
quiet. He nestled his head in my hands as he fell asleep from the first tranquilizer. The final shot didn't hurt him at all. The whole
process was quite calm and the vet was very nice and sensitive about the whole situation. I
had been afraid that Tiger would respond the way our first dog did, when she was put down
some 10 years ago. Aimée had really panicked through the whole procedure, but thankfully Tiger
It'll take some time to adjust to the Tiger-shaped void in my life. I may not spend as much time
drawing as I used to, there's no way to tell. But I am very grateful for the 15 years of joy he
gave me. I'm glad that up until a few weeks ago he was relatively healthy. In fact, he was as
strong as an ox. I am also thankful for the fact that he was there to comfort me when things
got rough in our lives. I don't know how unusual this is in cats, but I always felt as if Tiger
could look into my eyes and tell what I was thinking and feeling.
Like I said, I know I will miss him very much. But at least he is now no longer in pain from
a disease which worked very fast in his body. And, despite what some people may think, I do believe
that animals have souls, just like we humans do. I think Tiger went straight to heaven, and when my
time comes perhaps I'll get to see him again.
Title: Happy new year, and an update on my cat
Date: January 3rd 2009
Happy new year everybody. To be completely honest, I didn't stay up until midnight myself.
All the recent events, combined with the fact that I was already tired before the holidays
even started, meant that on new year's eve I simply fell asleep at 23:00. Whoops...
Anyway, the new SoL is up and there are some new pictures in the galleries and the fan art
As for the cat, I'm afraid there's now more bad news. Those of you who visit my dA page
probably already know about it, but I forgot to also post a message here. Last Monday we
went back to the vet, who took another x-ray of Tiger's leg. This x-ray confirmed that he
does indeed have bone cancer, and quite an aggressive form of it too. It has already started
to creep up his leg, beyond the elbow. There was also some undetermined stuff going on in his
lungs. The vet strongly suspected that they are early tumors as well. This means that the cancer
has already spread and may even be in other organs as well. Amputating Tiger's leg will therefore
no longer be enough to save him, and, truth be told, it wouldn't be a nice thing to do to an animal
of his age.
I've spent the last few days getting used to the idea that Tiger doesn't have very long left to
live. Right now he's getting double doses of pain meds, because as I said before, the regular
doses just didn't seem to be helping him. But even with the double doses, he still isn't feeling
very well. You can just tell by looking at him. And I think it won't be too long before the
side effects of the pain meds start to show either.
So, long story short, Tiger basically has an unknown number of days left to live, until he loses his
appetite. That would indicate that the pain meds have started damaging his stomach and that
would mean it would be best to have him put to sleep. Part of me wonders if I should wait that
long, just to have those pain meds make him sicker. Although he still enjoys to eat and sleep,
you can still see he's not having a terribly good time. But then again, he has also been by my
side for the better part of my life. Deciding when to end the life of your best friend is very
Every extra day I get now is a gift and a chance for me to say my good-byes, and Tiger doesn't
seem to have that I-wish-I-was-dead-look on his face yet, but I don't know if I ever do want to
see him looking like that. It's hard, you know?
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